Close

Today, a song started playing in my mind. It reminded me of someone in my life. It’s a bit strange this day, as faces of people keep going through my mind. Unintentionally, I take out recordings out of jukebox and play them on my own instrument.

I guess all of this derives from the fact that I had such an intense dream. And this time it was a good one. 🙂 Very nice actually. Someone interesting appeared in my dream and for the first time in a long time I felt the warmness of an innocent kiss and a warm hug.

So I woke-up with a smile on my face. I keep trying to figure out what my dreams mean, because my subconscious is very active and I believe that it’s trying to point out to me things I should do. But it takes courage to do certain things. It’s not easy to plunge into uncertainty. A strange feeling awoke the butterflies in my stomach again. And I haven’t even seen the person who triggered that emotion in a while. My feelings make a lovely puzzle lately. And just when I think I’ve manages to figure out where every piece goes, another piece pops up and makes the game start all over again.

Today it’s a smile. Last night it was a kiss. Who knows what the next piece will be? But I’m fascinated with life’s intricacy. It’s what makes it splendid!

PS: I’ve got that need for closeness again. Just a warm, gentle feeling of having someone special near.

In the middle of everything…but happy :)

happy days

Although the last 2 weeks have been more than hectic, I’ve somehow managed to keep it under control. Moreover, this crazy race for preparing for the exams has actually made me very happy. I have managed to read everything I wanted and, until this moment, do my best. I’ve found pleasure in learning and working again. And for now, it’s enough for me. Friends may call up and ask if I’m still alive, but sacrificing a few weeks never hurt anyone. 🙂 It’s all about timing and deriving pleasure from what you do. And God, am I going to love my job! And yes, I now know that I can never have everything. Or maybe I can. For a little while. And I can hold that moment and enjoy it with all of my being. The important thing is that many things can make us happy. Today it’s studying. Tomorrow may be my friends. And who knows who can be the day after that.

Just one more week to go. PR has never been so much fun. 😀

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Rag doll

Sometimes I just feel like closing my eyes. They seem tired. They take the world outside and build it up inside me. They twist and turn images in my head and make me feel dizzy. My eyes and my brain plot against me and fill my nights with strange dreams. And sometimes I need to take a break from the world. My eyes get fed up with their jobs and beg for rest. They tell me

that it’s time to stop seeing, time to take a deep breath…and let go. At times, the sun hurts them: it’s too bright. Other times, they miss certain faces…so I close my eyes and watch those pictures again. Or maybe an entire movie…Too bad there’s no happy ending. But we have Hollywood to blame for that. And just when I had started to think that having myself is all I need to feel happy. Things got so tangled. I’m like a rag doll, made up of bits an pieces, of strange colors and sewed together badly.

I need to be rescued from myself. I need a pair of powerful hands to hold me and make me all better. Hands that spell “protection” and “tenderness” gently with their fingers on my skin. I need an arm under my head so I can sleep well again. I need so many things…but for now I have to settle with waiting.

saving hands

“Nooo
Ive gone out of my way
But I’m not free
From this pain I’m breathing
I was a fool to think
someday you would come around…”

Maroon 5 – Rag doll