We lost. So what? Another reason to hate the Dutch. At least we’re better than the damn French. Their complete and utter humiliation is soothing enough for me. 😀
There’s no place like home!
Dupa multe luni de in care viata mea s-a scurs intr-un ritm ametitor, printre alarme de ceas, facultate si o sesiune mai mult decat obositoare, a venit timpul sa pun pauza. Take a deep breath and exhale… Mi-am facut bagajele in cea mai mare graba si, dupa ultimul examen, am lasat in urma inca un an de facultate. Oricat mi-ar placea Bucurestiul, incepuse sa ma lase afara energie. Aceleasi stazi, aceeasi aglomeratie, zgomotul continuu, caldura, oamenii grabiti, cladirile reci, soferii neciopliti…totul ajunsese sa ma sufoce. Aveam nevoie disperata de odihna si de o schimbare de ritm.
Trenul l-am prins tot in fuga….un ultim gest care se incadra atat de bine in peisajul bucurestean. Spre surprinderea mea si a tuturor celor de langa mine, ne astepta un tren cochet, cu vagoane de clasa 1, fapt ce ne-a facut pe toti sa ne verificam biletele suspiciosi. Bine, bine, am inteles ca e Intercity, dar…parca nu arata atat de bine! O fi vreo modalitate a celor de la SNCR sa compenseze, macar psihologic, pentru deraierea de luna trecuta. Drumul spre casa a fost un lucru de care avea nevoie: zgomotul molcom al trenului, miscarea lenta, linistea din vagon, toate imi demonstrau ca s-a terminat zbuciumul. Prin fata geamului s-au perindat peisaje dintre cele mai frumoase. Acum parca le vedeam cu alti ochi, desi trecusem de zeci de ori pe langa ele. Vara le schimbase: lanuri de grau verzui, cu mustati galbene se alintau in bataia vantului, lanuri de porumb de un verde proaspat se intindeau peste pamantul proaspat plouat, negru, reavan, mustind a viata, fasii de rapita ce straluceau galbene si mandre. Ici colo, cate un palc de cimbrisor si flori de camp intregeau culorile verii. Iar cerul…cerul e intotdeauna cel mai frumos intre Bucuresti si Focsani. Cel mai frumos si pur albastru din cate exista, cu norisori albi pudrati cu lila, si o distanta imensa intre pamant si ei. Scapand de orasul fara stele noaptea, in comparatie cu care toate incep sa para mici, deschiderea campului era o perspectiva ce-mi dadea un imens sentiment de libertate. Si atunci mi-am adus aminte ca inainte eram mult mai legata de natura. Si as vrea sa ma regasesc, mergand desculta, stand in iarba, sorbind roua si invelindu-ma cu umbra copacilor. Mi-e dor de lucruri simple si de liniste. De oameni molcomi si de voci cunoscute.
Orasul ma astepta linsitit si cochet. Parca niciodata nu mi-a fost dor in felul asta de el. Ajunsesem sa-l desconsider, insa mi-am dat seama ca mai are multe sa-mi ofere. Casa m-a intampinat cu caldura si parca-mi vine greu sa cred ca nu trebuie sa mai plec nicaieri. Dupa cel mai linistit somn pe care l-am avut de multa vreme incoace, m-am trezit vesela. Si astazi n-am nimic de facut? Asta e o schimbare monumentala! 😀 Afara plouase cald si tocmai ce iesea soarele. In bucatarie miroasea a caise si a cirese, iar florile de pe pervaz priveau curioase catre pisica din parcare, cu pete de toate culorile.
Life has just slowed down….and it feels incredible!
Release…
After reading hundreds of pages I’m still not tired. It’s actually incredible how so much stress has not warn me out until now. Au contraire, so much energy has built up inside of me that I’m about to go kaboom! :)) In 48 hours I’ll be officially on holiday!!! I’m already thinking about the warm summer days of doing nothing, hanging out with friends, dancing in the evening and maybe some summer romance…;)) An entire summer of relaxation (I know to well just how much I needed this): a dream come true! I can barely wait to start packing and go home, where everything in quiet and friends are there to share smiles and have fun with. These past days, spent almost in isolation (no time to do anything else), have me craving with seeing my friends and going out. Just a bit more…the result will be more than awarding!
I love mornings
There are people who I just connect with. Even miles apart, there is that something that brings us together. The comfort of knowing that I’m in someone’s thoughts is so pleasing that I wake-up every morning with a smile on my face. And all the fatigue slips away. I just love mornings. Those warm summer mornings, that just make me feel alive. I wake up with the sound of music in my ears and I know that it’s going to be a wonderful week!:D
Close
Today, a song started playing in my mind. It reminded me of someone in my life. It’s a bit strange this day, as faces of people keep going through my mind. Unintentionally, I take out recordings out of jukebox and play them on my own instrument.
I guess all of this derives from the fact that I had such an intense dream. And this time it was a good one. 🙂 Very nice actually. Someone interesting appeared in my dream and for the first time in a long time I felt the warmness of an innocent kiss and a warm hug.
So I woke-up with a smile on my face. I keep trying to figure out what my dreams mean, because my subconscious is very active and I believe that it’s trying to point out to me things I should do. But it takes courage to do certain things. It’s not easy to plunge into uncertainty. A strange feeling awoke the butterflies in my stomach again. And I haven’t even seen the person who triggered that emotion in a while. My feelings make a lovely puzzle lately. And just when I think I’ve manages to figure out where every piece goes, another piece pops up and makes the game start all over again.
Today it’s a smile. Last night it was a kiss. Who knows what the next piece will be? But I’m fascinated with life’s intricacy. It’s what makes it splendid!
PS: I’ve got that need for closeness again. Just a warm, gentle feeling of having someone special near.
In the middle of everything…but happy :)
Although the last 2 weeks have been more than hectic, I’ve somehow managed to keep it under control. Moreover, this crazy race for preparing for the exams has actually made me very happy. I have managed to read everything I wanted and, until this moment, do my best. I’ve found pleasure in learning and working again. And for now, it’s enough for me. Friends may call up and ask if I’m still alive, but sacrificing a few weeks never hurt anyone. 🙂 It’s all about timing and deriving pleasure from what you do. And God, am I going to love my job! And yes, I now know that I can never have everything. Or maybe I can. For a little while. And I can hold that moment and enjoy it with all of my being. The important thing is that many things can make us happy. Today it’s studying. Tomorrow may be my friends. And who knows who can be the day after that.
Just one more week to go. PR has never been so much fun. 😀
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