Nu stiu ce mi-a venit azi, dar am pornit sa fac ordine intr-unul dintre dulapurile in care aveam tot felul de hartii si caiete pe care le-am pastrat din generala si liceu. Si a fost ciudat sa dau peste anumite lucruri, peste anumite pagini care aproape mi se stersesera din memorie. Am gasit colectia de postere. š citeste mai departe →
Sweet dreams..:)
Oh yes, this was a wonderful night: I finally managed to get some good sleep and I even had the most wonderful dream! I dream of ATB! š We were walking together in Bucharest, after one of his shows, and he came to my place and then we left for a trip. We went skiing. :)) And I was pretty good at it! That makes 2 things in my dream that will nearly never happen: me walking with ATB and being a good skier. :)) He was so adorable…and I woke up with biggest smile on my face. š Judgind by his music, ATB is a dreamy man. I bet his wife feels very lucky to have him by her side…
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Choosing a religion
The past days I stumbled across one of the idiotic things I’ve ever come across the Internet. It was this:
Oh, mighy Internet, bless us with your unending wisdom and give us the solution to our existential problems! This is too much to take…I mean, for heaven’s sake, do we really need to be told everything? We get advice on how to eat, how to dress, how to have sex even, but have some of us really come up to the state when they aren’t capable of deciding for themselves concerning such a personal matter? Apparently, yes… It makes me sad to see this happen, but I guess there’s nothing we can do, but accept that all this religious mumbo-jambo is going to go on for a while. What do they do there: do they give you a test and if you have over under 50 points you should be Orthodox, between 50-100 you should be Catholic and over 100 you should be Islamic? It seems to me just soooooo stupid…
Just the other night, I was having a very interesting conversation with my friends (I missed talking to them like that) and we were trying to figure out in what degree is religion necessary. That led me to the conclusion that it’s necessary to the extent to which humans are still incapable of self-control and still need a point of refference, a gridline to measure their actions and try to separate right from wrong. Apart from all the religion talk, I really needed to reopen some doors of my mind. I’ve been so caught up lately that I’ve neglected my spiritual side (and I’m reffering to religion here) and I really nedeed to rekindle my interest for certain things. Once the doors opened, a lot of thoughts came rushing in…thoughts I’ve missed and thoughts I know will take me far.
Romania – Simply amazing…Chiar ca.
Romania este o tara minunata, cu oameni minunati, cu ordine, pace si frumusete. NOT!!!
Romania este o tara in care aproape nimic nu mergeĀ cumĀ trebuie,Ā darĀ asta e deja o stim cu totii.
Podul de la Giurgeni: 8 lei intrarea. Mai mult decat am vazut in orice tara din Europa peĀ care am vazut-o panaĀ acum. Portiunea imediat urmatoare e cufundata intr-un nor de praf, nu exista asfalt si e mai rau ca la tara. Primul lucru care iti vine in minte e sa-i injuri de mama focului, pentru ca de ani se platesc sume imense pentru podul ala si pentru soselele aferente, dar nu se face nimic. Putin mai incolo soseaua e facuta, insa ma intreb cat de bine, avand in vedere ca am vazut aproape de Braila sosea recent turnata, dar complet denivelata si plina de gropi. Din nou, nimic nou aici.
Nu e nimic nou nici in faptul ca se conduce total iresponsabil, ca soferii de camion/autoutilitare/tractor etc. folosesc linistit a doua banda, fara sa dea 2 bani pe ceilalti participanti la trafic. Si tot asa…
Povestea continua in minunata noastra Romanie. Iubesc tara asta pentru ce poate fi, dar o detest pentru oamenii care o locuiesc (majoritatea dintre ei). Si da, nu cred ca voi rezista sa-mi traiesc restul vietii aici. As vrea totusi sa nu ajung la 30 de ani cu nervii tandari.
Filed under "Things I know. Things that make me wonder".
The past couple pf days I’ve been very focused on myself, thinking about what I want, what I need, what makes me happy. And after a quite serious introspection, I’ve found out that there are a series of things I’m sure about and some that still leave me wonder…
- Is it completely wrong to compare people? I am currently using the means of comparison to rank people in my life, but I feel that I’ve become a bit too critical. I try to narrow that new perspective into selectivity, so I don’t fall into extremes.
- I think I know now exactly what I need to be happy, but what if someone/something comes along that can give me a new sense of happiness? Will I be able to see that or will I just keep sustaining my view of happiness?
- It is so strange too see somebody act like I did in a certain point of my life. I thought that it would be nice to have someone that knows the things I like because he likes the same ones, but…it’s getting a bit hard. Was I that overly enthusiastic at the beginning of a relationship? Hm….it sure makes me wonder. Sometimes I was, yes, I admit it. But isn’t a young man supposed to be over that kind of behavior?
- I need the hunt. No relationship is ever going to work for me if the man I’m with will act to available. Although I’m aware that this type of behavior is more appropriate for men rather than women, I cannot help myself. This is the way I need things to be.
- I need a man that can impress me. I need a man that can blow my mind in intelligent discussion, a man that knows his way in life and is working towards something. A man that want to be accom
plished. A man that knows what he wants and fights for it. I need a strong man, capable of great things. A man that can make me proud and who I can look up to. I need a man that can posses me, but at the same time let me be. I have to feel him on me from afar and never question his fidelity. I need my man to leave me wanting more…every time. If I have it all, I tend to…you know…get bored. Isn’t that what we all do? I am hard to please, I know, because I need contradicting actions and thoughts to make me complete. I have a contradicting nature of my own. And he doesn’t have to look like he’s trying too hard, because that is definitely not a turn on. And I know it’s not too much to ask. I’ve been lucky enough to have such a man by my side.
- Sometimes younger guys can be more mature than older guys. And I don’t know that probably sounds stupid or really mundane, but it’s unsettling…to say the least.
- I love to play mind games these days. It really works out my appetite for intellectual stimulation.
- I’ve developed a real and palpable sense of self-security and self-trust. I’m pleased with myself, but I also keep pushing myself into developing greater projects for my future. I’m no longer afraid of solitude, because I know that there will always be someone out there, and, hopefully, someone worth the time, wait, energy and love.
Caution! Do not mix!
A lesson I’ve learned in the past couple of weeks has confirmed one of my relationship-related theories. The truth is, no matter how hard you try and how much of yourself you put into it, you cannot go from friends to lovers successfully. Friendship and love are two dangerous feelings that give an unwanted chemical reaction when mixed and it’s much better to keep them separated.
I’ve tried once and failed. The friendship almost dissolved, but we managed to repair it and now we’re good friends again.
I’ve tried twice and failed miserably.
The third time, well, there was a momentary spark, but it faded away so quickly that we could not get hold of it. But I believe that it is better this way.
I’ve come to believe that I simply cannot have feelings for a person I’ve known for a long time. I need to feel challenged, I need to discover the person next to me. I need intricacy, the unknown. And I don’t have that with a friend. It’s just impossible. I strongly believe that if the spark doesn’t come up in the beginning, it will never become a flame. And where there’s no spark, there’s no relationship.
Some things are better kept silent. One word and a relationship will never be the same again. That’s why it’s advisable to wait, to ponder and then to act. Though they say that in love we should not keep our feelings a secret, it’s better to wait and see if it’s really love or just a spontaneous physical attraction. Of course, a friend knows you and is capable to offer you comfort and security, but…it’s pricey.
Relationships are hard to maintain, especially friendships with a member of the opposite sex, because, at some point, one of the two will feel attracted to his/her friend and complications will start to emerge. I guess I’ve come to a certain point in my life when I can say that I feel emotionally mature (to a certain degree) and I can make good decision. And keeping my mouth shut this time was the best one I’ve made in a while.